Lost Connection

 This guy has other things to deal with. He loves me. He is unbothered while wearing a mask, while being serene in front of others. He doesn't know how much he really cares about me. We need to be in separation because he has been listening to the wrong people. The only reaction he has with me is his social media. Distance, emotional.. physical... devoted.. returning to me.. big part of it... journey.. I want to be the end when she isn't there anymore want to be the end when he isn't there. I want to be here for Kayden when no on else in around. I want to be in his life so he knows me for the next 10 years with his dad. So he knows that not all love can be helped. He has a hard life already...living with his grandmother who he thinks is his mother. And his grandmas boyfriend or live in companion who has been there for more than *v27  Version 27  you have been with someone for 27 years. You are not going to change. they are going to continue to hurt that person that they a...

 We got to chat today. I wish I could chat with him more. I want to know what the wishy washy energy is. What is the inner child wounds? Is he going to take a leap of faith? He will always choose the child that he raised. He is seeing that everything that he is doing is crumbling. He doesn't want to be rejected. He has been throwing all these options. Sexually attracted, maturity level is the same with the age difference, no one Needs anything. Wake up and realize our connection is the real deal. The connection we have together is real. CAPRICORN AND FULFILLED. omg we are fulfilled because there is nothing with the third party... triggered.. goals... work... business love... hard work... is it going to pay OFF? 

 I have had so much heartbreak and grief. I am completing my journey. I have been just been wanting to be loved me whole life. I am fully capable of having my way. I am being practical about something, I just want to have what I want in my life. I am going to let him go. There is nothing that he wants from me. I am moving forward and growing. I want him to change but I don't think he will. Should I move on? I miss him so much. He was my best friend. I had to do what I had to do. I couldn't put up with the games anymore. Oh well, nothing I can do about what happened.  Yours Truly,  Jyll.